New Vibrations
Well hello. It’s been a week since I’ve written anything. I’ve been busy with school and the usual things. Sorry for the brief absence! I got back from church a couple of hours ago and am now sitting here at my usual place in the library on this unexpectedly warm afternoon. I want to be outside, but unfortunately I can’t handle the intense sunniness as I’m trying to study. I’ve got quite the academic agenda on my hands at the moment: two exams and a midterm tomorrow, and two more exams on Thursday. College just loves to test your time management skills!
This past week has been a rather rough one for me. On Monday before training I had some soreness around the area that I fractured in my right foot. I told my trainer and he told me to look after it and let him know how it was feeling after practice. I started to experience intense tenderness and pain during training, especially when I started or stopped on my right foot. My trainer was concerned at the area I had been complaining about and had me see the team doctor on Monday night. The doctor immediately arranged for me to have an xray, as he believed that I could be having complications with the screw in my metatarsal. An xray would give him a much better look at the problem. Until then, he told me to stay off of my foot for five days (meaning no running, jumping etc).
Tuesday morning I had an xray, but didn’t hear back from the doctor until Thursday afternoon. The verdict finally came, but again wasn’t very specific. He said that certain angles on the xray showed that the screw could be messing with my bone that it sits in. The doctor said that during surgery, my bone canals were quite small, so he had to find the smallest screw he had to insert into my bone. The xray shows that this screw may be too big for my bone. He wants me to stay off my foot for the seven days, then ease into some rehab. If my foot is still sore, he wants me to come in and see him again so I can have a bone scan. The bone scan will give him a very detailed look at my foot. However, the likely case is that I am going to have yet another surgery in order for him to take the current screw out and put in a longer but thinner screw back in to my metatarsal. The good thing is that the recovery time shouldn’t take as long as my original foot surgery, because this time the foot doesn’t have to heal a fracture. But the bad thing is, at the moment, the uncertainty of the situation. I will definitely keep the status of my lovely troublemaker of a right foot updated here on the blog!
I’m trying to stay positive, and feel that I have succeeded in that boat thus far. Injury is definitely not new to me as a college student athlete, as I have been injured for more months than been an active athlete! If I’ve learned anything from all of this, it’s that getting upset and depressed from such sudden bad news isn’t helpful to the situation at all. This is completely out of my hands and being upset and saddened only makes things worse for me. In a constant effort to stay positive, I just keep thinking of the future and my potential as a student athlete. I feel that, once healthy, I can definitely be a positive impact for my team! But for now, I’m just going to question the Big Man and try to find a reason for all of this, a way to learn and grow from this reoccurring injury. When I hear that word from Upstairs, I’ll be sure to tell you!
I guess I took this past week of from blogging to kind of let my thoughts and feelings grow and mature inside myself. I’m still not quite sure how to take this path that God has lead me on. If it was my initial choice, I would definitely be walking the complete opposite way, away from injury! But the for sure thing is, it’s not up to me, it’s up to Him. There’s a bigger picture that the little things in life all take a part in illustrating. You can quote me on that! In the present moment, no one really knows which piece of the bigger picture is being illustrated until a long way down the road.
That’s enough theological talk for now.. anyways.. The rest of my Sunday contains study time at the library, then a calculus study session at 4 o’clock hosted by my professor, how thoughtful of her. Then some more study time tonight. Hopefully this week doesn’t drag on for too long, because on Friday evening I leave for Athens for an awesome Valentines weekend at UGA. I can’t wait!
Until then, I’m going to abide the doctor’s rules and stay off of my foot. If it continues to be sore, I’ll probably have that bone scan early next week. Might I add that the current temperature in Rock Hill is 73 degrees. Nothing to do but rest and gain some knowledge. What a perfect day.
